Good morning.
Some of you should have stayed home.
(Laughter) Do you want to be happy or do you want to be sad? (Happy)
I’m sorry, but my topic is repentance. Penitence demands repentance
right? Do you like to see humble people or do you like to see arrogant
people?
There are so many ways to see people these
days because everybody wants to be somebody. They want to prove that they
have something to offer, whether it’s for money, power, whatever in the
secular setting. It takes a lifetime to prove.
Why? Perfection is given by God, not you.
The ultimate judge is not you. When you even ponder the notion of individual
perfection you’re only kidding yourself if you don’t understand how things
ultimately get judged.
Your parents force you to go to school and
in the end the grade matters. It’s not you who dictates how you graduate
with a certain grade that you think that you deserve. This system reflects
the basic outcome of dying. That’s the basic premise that you have to
accept. What you’re actually experiencing is a little taste of it.
You have no control over your perfection.
That is the ultimate irony, because you can’t judge yourself to be perfect.
It lasts forever. It doesn’t work like that. Basically you’re going through
a certain conditioning process. It’s not easy to get good at anything.
I’m here to talk to my age group or above.
That’s my forum here. It has nothing to do with what else I can do.
Everything has a purpose. It’s very specific. You have to target it to the
point in which it matters, to what you’re actually trying to accomplish in
that specific event or scenario. If I see little kids I know I’m talking you
your parents. I’m not going to talk to you. It’s not my focus. I can do that
some other time, some other situation,
I am here trying to do what I think is
appropriate, that I can best serve for the greater purpose.
You have a whole lot of time ahead of you.
I hate to see a lot of young people here. I want to see a lot of old people
here. (Laughter) I see young people when I go home.
You don’t have to change anything. You
have to change what is real. Real is not always you. Real is what is real.
That’s what we have to understand; real is always beyond you. That’s why God
is a suffering God, because He has a concept that makes Him a slave for all
sorts of whatever in terms of time.
Please do not think that everything
revolves around you. Repentance is a very necessary tool for conscience
because it keeps you motivated. It keeps you moving forward. It evolves you
to find your perfection ultimately. Even that is not dictated by you. You
don’t have absolute control over that end.
You will have to die first to have the
finality of that. Do you understand me? That is absolute. No one is an
exception. Ultimately it has to be represented, because the messiah is the
representation. How do you go about using the tool that we have? It’s
a tool. Conscience, the device that makes us do something, that tries to
make us better is a tool. It’s a blessing it’s a gift from God. A blessing
is a tool that comes from God.
It’s something that will aid you and
support you, to make you something better than you are. You have to know how
to properly use that, because if you don’t, you’ll mess it up. You’ll lose
the opportunity. You can’t blame it on anyone else. In the end it is your
responsibility to correct whatever you have to correct, whatever you have to
complete, what ever you have to perfect.
When you talk about the concept of
perfection, it is all about your idiosyncrasies. "I’m somebody special!"
Perfection is just about catering to that nonsense. "I’m special." Special
in what? You must prove it in the end. You have to die for it. You have to
prove it by dying, and in doing so you’ll prove your idiosyncratic unique
greatness, however minute, however miserable it might be.
Trying to go beyond that and getting into
grandiosity… Why do you want to do that? Do you think that you can
change the world without going through the basic process of things? I don’t
think so. If you don’t understand what is basic, you can’t even find
yourself. There’s no way you’re going to get a grade. That’s just the way it
is.
Then what the hell are you dying for?
That’s the problem. There is no one else that’s going to answer that
question other than you, your individual self. Why is repentance
necessary? Because it keeps you busy, because lazy people get corrupted.
When people get rich… When politicians
seek office because they believe their ideals are better than the other guy,
they imagine that if I just get power I will change the world. The problem
is that when you have an environment that is susceptible to all sorts of
stuff that is not right for individual growth in this rich country that is
more privileged than other countries. You’re going to have problems when
things start to come easier and easier for you. Obviously you’re going to
get corrupted. Why? You have less time to repent and repentance at least
keeps you busy.
You try to be responsible for your own
good, whatever you did, and screw everybody else. "I did this and I’m
responsible!" Repentance is a tool of conscience; through the evolving
process that hopefully can give you that completion that you desire. If you
hold on to it maybe you have a chance, but if you let it go you have no
chance.
Right or wrong, in the end you have to
stand, because God will judge you. Even Sun Myung Moon will be judged by
God. My Father, the Messiah will be judged by God. Absolutely!
I believe that. That’s how I’ve learnt.
That’s how I accept. There is no exception to the rule. If anybody says
otherwise… you have to look at the monkey and see where the tail lies and
step on it. If you do something wrong you are going to suffer one way or the
other. It doesn’t matter how you excuse yourself. If you’re man enough you
wouldn’t.
Everybody can be broken. In a war
situation when someone is a torturer, they’re the one who has the
self-righteousness on their side. They are the one who is greater and
superior. That’s what gives them the right to torture their enemy prisoners
to make them repent for their sins against you. Everybody can be
broken. What does that prove in war? Nothing.
Let’s talk about historical indemnity.
Let’s say that you went through that torture for the sake of humanity, for
your lineage. Make it true to that. Don’t say anymore beyond that. Let it
go. You move on and think about yourself from now on, because nobody is
going to take care of you. You have to take care of yourself and each other,
if we have a community; if we’re building one.
I would like to see all sorts of… I don’t
want to see just yellow faces in my family… I don’t intend to be
something more than what I am. That is the essence of people like me. That
means a lot. I don’t care what people say. I make my own decisions.
What’s important is what is good, what is basic, that can ultimately bring
the idealism regardless of who we are. That’s the most important thing.
You think you can make a living, yes, but
what if everything collapses? If you have a lazy mind it will be absolutely
corrupt. And you have an environment that caters to that kind of reality
then it will pretty much wipe out the young generation. We can change it. We
can make a difference.
Define what you get beyond yourself. Try;
keep on trying until you see the light in your own way. I don’t care how
long it takes. I hope you make it before you die. I can’t help you beyond
that. If you don’t take care of your residual stuff it will get passed down
and somebody else will bear the greater burden. That’s just the way it is.
What if an asteroid the size of Jupiter
comes from outside our solar system and you get vaporized? You want to know
the truth, start with your self.
Everybody has the voice to be heard, but
don’t kid yourself. Do something before you die. And you will die. You will
die of disease, accident, suicide, or natural cause. You will die. Even if
you live to your fullest, how long do you think you will live? Do you know
how you’re going to be judged? Are you working on your grade? Do you really
know what you’re going to be graded upon? Be real, alright.
Do you think people want to be a
prostitute? Do you think people want to be a junkie? Do you think people
want to be a criminal? Do you think people want to be a con-artist? No, but
they do for all sorts of reasons.
So there is nobody like that among the
young people in this room, so at least that is a pride you can point out.
You have to be real. Balance your reality, your physical self, your mind
status, and your physical awareness. If you have a family situation where
you can exchange with your folks, by all means take that opportunity,
because you’re lucky if you can have that. I don’t think that there is any
parents if they have the ideal scenario that would let that kind of
opportunity go to waste.
(From now until the end of the speech, Hyo
Jin Nim was very emotional and often in tears. There were several long
emotional pauses)
Please be aware of your situation. Please
be aware of your reality. Know what it offers. Always measure yourself. If
you want to grow have to have balance so you have to know the extremes. As
you grow the extremes will only get bigger. It will constantly expand; you
have to grow into it. The stupid thing about arrogance is that you think
when you reach some kind of level that you’re in control. You have some kind
of sick sense of superiority. It doesn’t work like that.
If you want to be something then you have
to constantly… That’s why children’s concept of reality is dominated by all
these role models that they can make a lot of money and they can get their
presents and get their fix. That’s where the titillation factor is, at the
edge.
You have to get into things to a certain
point to appreciate them. If you just use music as a kind of sonic
background for a party, that’s actually defeating the property of music
itself. You have a different agenda other than music.
Before we talk to our kids we have to
question ourselves as parents. You have to be responsible. Yeah I did wrong.
No excuses. Did I love my kids? I’d be in hell for them. It’s easy when I
take all the responsibility, blame. I’ll pay for it until they come back.
So in America I have a different kind of justice because I’m Reverend Moon’s
son. That’s absolutely unique. Anyway God will judge. Please, please,
please.
You don’t know me that well. Since you’re
in this room and I see a response, I’m just reacting. I react to things to a
point. Today just happens to be one of those days. It’s Okay. I’m just
responding to you. You have to be willing to go a long ways through all
sorts of difficult crap and suffering. You can’t get away that easy.
All I’m here for is for sharing. I’ll do what I do.
Homogeneity is about the closest thing we
have to monarchy, because there is no such thing as a pure monarchy in
today’s political situation. Conservatism is a little closer than
liberalism. America’s standing is very young. Liberalism is the opposite
because it’s an adversarial system. The point is that is something tries to
hold on to boundaries, and then something else will try to do away with
boundaries. That’s the problem. That’s what we have to deal with. That’s the
kind of work that has to be done in Democratic free society, especially in a
developed nation.
That’s why repentance is very important.
You have to make sure that the politicians don’t get lazy. It doesn’t matter
whether you’re a Democrat or Republican. In homogenous countries like Korea
and Japan there are many political parties, but if you screw up you pay.
Everybody is after you. Why? Because it is a homogenous society.
When you are dealing with all sorts of
different races and cultures, it is very difficult. That’s why certain basic
principles are very important. We have to master those. We have to project
those. We have to make that better, not just in terms of presentation, but
in reality.
You can’t make a living with just words.
It’s body mind and spirit. You are going to be judged one day. I believe in
God. I might not believe in you or I might not believe in anything else; I
might not even believe in me, but I believe in God.
Sometime I don’t know how I’m going to do
what I have to do, where I have to start. I just have to figure it out.
That’s how I start. Nonetheless in the end you have to prove it. If you
expect things to be easy and you expect the best then you will be corrupted;
you don’t know your own limitations. You think of awesome things and expect
the best in every way; I’m American crap and in the end it all comes
crashing down.
If you want something to last, you’d
better know what you’re asking for. Isn’t that obvious even when you buy a
used car don’t you want to ask basic questions and have knowledge before
going ahead with the purchase? I’m just talking about secular things,
but if you think about ideal things then you’d better understand the basic
things because the basic things are important. That’s reality.
How much you want to do is up to you. You
can always enjoy the security of your boundaries. Boundaries are secure. If
you can protect your boundaries you have security. If you try to expand them
you’re asking for trouble. There’s risk involved, uncertainty. But how far
are you willing to go, in what way, for what reason. Because everytime you
skip a generation you go into that basic premise.
You need to question your self. I know
that’s the way; I know that is reality, but how far are the people on top
willing to go? If you want to do something there is a basic principle. Just
ask yourself "Am I willing to die for this?" It’s nobody else’s business but
mine.
That’s always why I ask you to think about
dying. Living is easy because you’re already breathing. You’re living right
now. It’s easy for you. Dying is important. Dying is harder, reaching
perfection is much more hard. Living, you just take for granted just sitting
there and you breathe and eat and think what you want because you are
allowed at this point in time. You get comfortable with this and the same
thing happens and you want to take it to the next level and the next level
and the next level. What level are we talking about?
You can say that New Yorkers are jaded and
sophisticated but they aren’t going to change the world. They live in the
Capital of Capitalism; in the end nobody takes them seriously. They aren’t
going to change the world. It’s just about them. Familiarity gives you
some kind of confidence, but you have to understand that confidence can be a
double edged sword. In what way are you confident?
Anyway, Okay. So I need to repent. There’s
always room to repent. I need to repent because I didn’t intend to be like
this today. For what ever its worth if this helps you, nobody is ever
going to do this to you again, maybe your mommy or something. Let’s just be
happy because I believe that it’s doable. I do. I do. It is doable. We just
have to do it step-by-step. We’ve just got to in reality. We have to have it
in reality. We need it in reality. We need more of it.
Hey! It’s not too late right? You don’t
want to think it’s to late right? Do you want this to go on? Do
you want me to come every Sunday? How Long? Give me the days.
How long do you see that being? You give me a time and I’ll do it.
What ever. How long? That’s what I’m asking. (One sister says
"forever") (Laughter) I’ll be here as long as you need me. If
you don’t need me just tell me so and I’ll disappear. I’ll be more than
happy to disappear.
Take care of yourselves. Okay.
